You won’t believe the transformation behind this story. From a runaway teen escaping a traumatic home, to addiction to crack cocaine, being shot and living with PTSD, committing a murder that led to a potential 40-year prison sentence, and enduring 4.5 years in solitary confinement...this is the unbelievable life journey of Shaka Senghor. In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown in honor of Mental Health Awareness Month, the resilience expert and bestselling author of How to Be Free: A Proven Guide to Escaping Life’s Hidden Prisons shares the raw, unfiltered truth about the darkest moments of his life, and the mindset that helped him rebuild everything. What began in violence, addiction, and trauma ultimately led Shaka to become a global thought leader who now inspires executives, entrepreneurs, elite athletes, and audiences around the world. And the turning point? It happened inside a prison cell. Shaka Senghor breaks down: - Growing up in chaos & running away from home as a teenager - How drug culture & crack cocaine addiction nearly destroyed his life - The traumatic experience of being shot, and later discovering who pulled the trigger - PTSD & emotional trauma that followed - The night that changed everything: the murder that sent him to prison for up to 40 years - Support he wishes he had before prison - The desperate moment he tried to escape prison - The heartbreaking 4.5 years he spent in solitary confinement and other tragedies & injustices he witnessed behind bars - How literacy and journaling kept him sane - Wrestling with anger toward God & finding connection to a higher power through nature - How mentorship from older incarcerated men changed the trajectory of his life He also reveals the powerful mindset shift that transformed his life, including how he used the Law of Attraction to eventually get out of solitary confinement. One of the most powerful parts of this conversation is Shaka’s process of healing: - Learning to track the sources of physical & emotional trauma - Identifying emotional triggers - Releasing shame for things he wasn’t responsible for - Understanding how anger often grows from suppressed shame - Concept of “weaponizing the past” and how he learned to reconcile anger for what he did, and what was done to him We're also diving deep into forgiveness in ways you’ve likely never heard before. Shaka shares what it meant when the godmother of the man he killed forgave him, the life-changing moment when the person who shot him apologized, how that apology helped him forgive his mother for years of abuse, and why forgiveness isn’t weakness, but liberation. After finally being approved for parole, Shaka created a plan to rebuild his life from the ground up. That plan eventually led him to become a successful author and speaker, advocate for prison reform, and even develop a close friendship with Oprah Winfrey. Shaka also talks about the surreal experience of reentering society, including the technological shock of cell phones and computers, his lasting PTSD symptoms from prison, the impact incarceration has on families and loved ones (not just the inmate), and his advice for supporting someone returning home from prison. Even if you’ve never experienced incarceration, Shaka's story is more universal than you might think. He explains: - Why uncertainty is one of the hardest emotions humans face - How many of us live inside “hidden prisons” of fear, shame, & trauma - Why vulnerability, forgiveness, & resilience are the keys to breaking free - Why every human being deserves hope, love, joy, & success...no matter their past Shaka's mission is simple: Help people reclaim agency over what ails them and realize that freedom starts within.

What really happens inside the world’s most dangerous underground economies? And why do the people running them trust a journalist enough to talk? Mariana van Zeller — Emmy- and Peabody Award–winning investigative journalist, host and executive producer of Trafficked on National Geographic, and host of The Hidden Third podcast — has spent years embedded with scammers, smugglers, cartel members, assassins, and black-market power brokers. In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, she pulls back the curtain on the shadow systems that quietly shape the global economy. Mariana breaks down the difference between the black market vs. the grey market, why understanding these hidden economies is the only way to create real change, and how she manages to gain access to some of the most secretive and dangerous players in the world. She explains how empathy, not judgment, is often the key to getting people labeled “the worst of the worst” to open up, and why many of them speak with her because of something surprisingly simple: a deep human need to be heard and understood. She also addresses critics who say she shouldn’t give criminals a platform, revealing why listening to these voices is essential to exposing the systems behind global crime. We dive into her most harrowing experiences in the field — including the terrifying moment she and her team weren’t sure they would make it out alive, and the time they had to escape a country in the middle of a life-threatening military coup while filming. Mariana also unpacks the current climate in Mexico’s drug war, explaining why violence often escalates when major cartel kingpins are taken down, and the troubling implications of the fact that many of the weapons used by cartels originate in the United States. We get into one of the fastest-growing criminal industries in the world: scams. She breaks down everything you’ve ever wanted to know about romance scams and “pig butchering” operations, including: - Psychological tactics scammers use - Who scammers typically target and why - Massive infrastructure behind modern scam compounds - Why many scammers are actually victims of forced labor themselves - Why victims often stay silent due to shame and stigma Mariana explains why advancing technology, crypto, and AI are making financial scams easier than ever, and why anyone can fall victim — no matter how smart or cautious they are, including the shocking case of a bank CEO who was successfully defrauded. We also explore medical black markets, from organ trafficking to international surrogacy scams, and discuss some of her most intense interviews, from conversations with a suspected Russian sex spy to Anna Delvey, the infamous socialite scammer. Despite spending her career face-to-face with some of the darkest corners of humanity, Mariana reveals something surprising: she still believes deeply in people. In fact, she sometimes finds more hope, honesty, and equality in underground markets than in global governments or legal capitalism. This conversation will change how you think about crime, power, empathy, and the hidden systems shaping our world!

SHOCKING REVELATIONS: NASA Scientist Breaks Silence on Nonhuman Intelligence, UAPs, and the Evidence They Don’t Want You to See What if the truth about nonhuman intelligence is already here on Earth - hidden in our oceans, interfering with our technology, and operating beyond the laws of physics we thought were unbreakable? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Dr. Kevin Knuth (former NASA research scientist & Professor of Physics at the University at Albany) reveals jaw-dropping, real-world evidence that will completely change how you think about UAPs, aliens, and reality itself. Dr. Knuth breaks down: - Nonhuman Intelligence Already Living on Earth? Why advanced UAP capabilities suggest they may have underwater bases and a vested interest in our planet - Nuclear Missiles SHUT DOWN by Unknown Craft: Verified incidents that stunned military officials - UAPs That DEFY Physics: Instant acceleration, silent movement, & impossible flight characteristics explained - Burned Humans, Scorched Trees & Disabled Cars: Close encounters with real physical effects - Abduction accounts that will disturb you, Including cases where humans reportedly interacted with extraterrestrial beings…and even held alien infants - “Angel Hair” Phenomenon: Strange material falling from the sky witnessed by thousands and analyzed by scientists - UAP Crash Debris Analysis: What researchers are uncovering from mysterious recovered materials - 3I Atlas Mystery: New observations & anomalies that strongly suggest it’s NOT a comet - The Water World Hypothesis: Why oceans may be the perfect hiding place for advanced nonhuman intelligence (and the growing number of sightings of objects entering and exiting the water!) - Why many scientists are afraid to speak publicly about UAPs - The lack of “smoking gun” evidence, and why that might be misleading - Patterns across thousands of sightings that suggest something real is happening - Beyond UAPs: Consciousness & the Unknown -Telepathy, remote viewing, and why accuracy drops the harder you try - Savant abilities that continue to defy scientific explanation - Dr. Knuth’s own paranormal & precognitive experiences - How being near cattle mutilation cases first led Dr. Knuth to question everything—and begin his search for answers - Signs to look for if nonhuman intelligence exists within just one light-day of Earth This isn’t science fiction. These are real accounts, real data, and real questions that challenge everything we think we know about our place in the universe!

SHOCKING REVELATIONS: NASA Scientist Breaks Silence on Nonhuman Intelligence, UAPs, and the Evidence They Don’t Want You to See What if the truth about nonhuman intelligence is already here on Earth - hidden in our oceans, interfering with our technology, and operating beyond the laws of physics we thought were unbreakable? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Dr. Kevin Knuth (former NASA research scientist & Professor of Physics at the University at Albany) reveals jaw-dropping, real-world evidence that will completely change how you think about UAPs, aliens, and reality itself. Dr. Knuth breaks down: - Nonhuman Intelligence Already Living on Earth? Why advanced UAP capabilities suggest they may have underwater bases and a vested interest in our planet - Nuclear Missiles SHUT DOWN by Unknown Craft: Verified incidents that stunned military officials - UAPs That DEFY Physics: Instant acceleration, silent movement, & impossible flight characteristics explained - Burned Humans, Scorched Trees & Disabled Cars: Close encounters with real physical effects - Abduction accounts that will disturb you, Including cases where humans reportedly interacted with extraterrestrial beings…and even held alien infants - “Angel Hair” Phenomenon: Strange material falling from the sky witnessed by thousands and analyzed by scientists - UAP Crash Debris Analysis: What researchers are uncovering from mysterious recovered materials - 3I Atlas Mystery: New observations & anomalies that strongly suggest it’s NOT a comet - The Water World Hypothesis: Why oceans may be the perfect hiding place for advanced nonhuman intelligence (and the growing number of sightings of objects entering and exiting the water!) - Why many scientists are afraid to speak publicly about UAPs - The lack of “smoking gun” evidence, and why that might be misleading - Patterns across thousands of sightings that suggest something real is happening - Beyond UAPs: Consciousness & the Unknown -Telepathy, remote viewing, and why accuracy drops the harder you try - Savant abilities that continue to defy scientific explanation - Dr. Knuth’s own paranormal & precognitive experiences - How being near cattle mutilation cases first led Dr. Knuth to question everything—and begin his search for answers - Signs to look for if nonhuman intelligence exists within just one light-day of Earth This isn’t science fiction. These are real accounts, real data, and real questions that challenge everything we think we know about our place in the universe!

This week we are re-releasing a Substack Live from our Breaker community! Mayim and Jonathan are joined by Nicole Sachs, LCSW, a renowned psychotherapist, author, and speaker who has become an internationally recognized pioneer in the field of mind-body medicine. As the architect of the “JournalSpeak” method and host of The Cure for Chronic Pain podcast, Sachs has dedicated her career to treating patients suffering from chronic pain, autoimmune conditions, and fatigue by addressing the underlying emotional components of physical symptoms. Nicole explains that our brains often use physical pain as a “protective” distraction to keep us from feeling overwhelming emotions like rage, shame, or grief. Think of it like an emotional reservoir—when it gets too full, the pressure has to go somewhere, and often, it manifests as a backache, a migraine, or digestive issues. Nicole’s story is as relatable as it is miraculous. After a year of being so locked up in pain that she couldn’t even put her toddlers in their car seats, she had a spiritual and psychological breakthrough. By getting brutally honest with herself through a specific type of journaling, her chronic back pain was 80% gone by the next morning. Nicole breaks down her healing method into three simple parts that anyone can start today: * Knowledge: Understanding that your brain and body are constantly communicating. * The Work (Journal Speak): A specific, 20-minute daily practice of “unbridled rants” to get the hidden stress out of your system. * Self-Compassion: Learning to change the way you talk to yourself to help your nervous system feel safe. This approach has helped people struggling with fibromyalgia, IBS, migraines, anxiety, PTSD and addiction. As Nicole puts it, pain isn’t a “broken” part of you—it’s information. Once you learn how to listen to what your body is trying to say, the possibilities for your life are endless. Check out Nicole’s work below. Website: www.nicolesachs.com Book: MIND YOUR BODY Podcast: The Cure for Chronic Pain Coaching: www.nicolesachs.com/coaching Membership: www.nicolesachs.com/membership Instagram: @nicolesachslcsw Spotify From the Vault: Back Pain, Sciatica, Coccydynia, and Unnecessary Surgery with Jacqueline

In honor of Autism Month, we’re revisiting one of our popular episodes from 2024 with former Playboy Playmate, Holly Madison. She reveals SHOCKING truths about her life in the Playboy Mansion....from her relationship with Hugh Hefner (who was 54 years her senior) to LOVE BOMBING, the dark side of STOCKHOLM SYNDROME, and BREAKING FREE and discovering herself. Holly (bestselling author, podcaster, THE PLAYBOY MURDERS host & EP) opens up about how being diagnosed with autism recently affected her entire outlook on life and shares important signs that you might be in a manipulative relationship. She discusses everything you’ve ever wondered about Playboy life, including: - What enticed her about the Playboy mansion experience, how she came to live there, and how she became Hugh Hefner’s “Main girlfriend” - Why she thinks she was an easy target for Hefner - Tactics Hefner employed to keep women from leaving the mansion - How she numbed herself through substance use to get through day-to-day life - How interpersonal dynamics & intense sense of competition within the playboy mansion contributed to her body dysmorphia - HEALING & EMPOWERMENT: What was Hefner really like behind closed doors? And how did she FINALLY break free from his grip? - What led her to break her silence on the trauma she suffered during her time at the mansion We’re unpacking her fascinating autism diagnosis, from the benefits of finally being diagnosed and how it negatively influenced her decision-making process, to how it informed her parenting style. Holly breaks down: - The real cost of giving up yourself in a harmful relationship - Why people stay in harmful relationships, from fear of judgment to lack of financial stability - Finding spirituality in storytelling & the places she lets her intuition guide her - Her new mission as a free speech advocate! - What she does to maintain positive mental health, including her superstitious vision board process Mayim and Holly also bond over their love of true crime as Holly explains “The Playboy Curse”!

You won’t believe the transformation behind this story. From a runaway teen escaping a traumatic home, to addiction to crack cocaine, being shot and living with PTSD, committing a murder that led to a potential 40-year prison sentence, and enduring 4.5 years in solitary confinement...this is the unbelievable life journey of Shaka Senghor. In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown in honor of Mental Health Awareness Month, the resilience expert and bestselling author of How to Be Free: A Proven Guide to Escaping Life’s Hidden Prisons shares the raw, unfiltered truth about the darkest moments of his life, and the mindset that helped him rebuild everything. What began in violence, addiction, and trauma ultimately led Shaka to become a global thought leader who now inspires executives, entrepreneurs, elite athletes, and audiences around the world. And the turning point? It happened inside a prison cell. Shaka Senghor breaks down: - Growing up in chaos & running away from home as a teenager - How drug culture & crack cocaine addiction nearly destroyed his life - The traumatic experience of being shot, and later discovering who pulled the trigger - PTSD & emotional trauma that followed - The night that changed everything: the murder that sent him to prison for up to 40 years - Support he wishes he had before prison - The desperate moment he tried to escape prison - The heartbreaking 4.5 years he spent in solitary confinement and other tragedies & injustices he witnessed behind bars - How literacy and journaling kept him sane - Wrestling with anger toward God & finding connection to a higher power through nature - How mentorship from older incarcerated men changed the trajectory of his life He also reveals the powerful mindset shift that transformed his life, including how he used the Law of Attraction to eventually get out of solitary confinement. One of the most powerful parts of this conversation is Shaka’s process of healing: - Learning to track the sources of physical & emotional trauma - Identifying emotional triggers - Releasing shame for things he wasn’t responsible for - Understanding how anger often grows from suppressed shame - Concept of “weaponizing the past” and how he learned to reconcile anger for what he did, and what was done to him We're also diving deep into forgiveness in ways you’ve likely never heard before. Shaka shares what it meant when the godmother of the man he killed forgave him, the life-changing moment when the person who shot him apologized, how that apology helped him forgive his mother for years of abuse, and why forgiveness isn’t weakness, but liberation. After finally being approved for parole, Shaka created a plan to rebuild his life from the ground up. That plan eventually led him to become a successful author and speaker, advocate for prison reform, and even develop a close friendship with Oprah Winfrey. Shaka also talks about the surreal experience of reentering society, including the technological shock of cell phones and computers, his lasting PTSD symptoms from prison, the impact incarceration has on families and loved ones (not just the inmate), and his advice for supporting someone returning home from prison. Even if you’ve never experienced incarceration, Shaka's story is more universal than you might think. He explains: - Why uncertainty is one of the hardest emotions humans face - How many of us live inside “hidden prisons” of fear, shame, & trauma - Why vulnerability, forgiveness, & resilience are the keys to breaking free - Why every human being deserves hope, love, joy, & success...no matter their past Shaka's mission is simple: Help people reclaim agency over what ails them and realize that freedom starts within.

What really happens inside the world’s most dangerous underground economies? And why do the people running them trust a journalist enough to talk? Mariana van Zeller — Emmy- and Peabody Award–winning investigative journalist, host and executive producer of Trafficked on National Geographic, and host of The Hidden Third podcast — has spent years embedded with scammers, smugglers, cartel members, assassins, and black-market power brokers. In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, she pulls back the curtain on the shadow systems that quietly shape the global economy. Mariana breaks down the difference between the black market vs. the grey market, why understanding these hidden economies is the only way to create real change, and how she manages to gain access to some of the most secretive and dangerous players in the world. She explains how empathy, not judgment, is often the key to getting people labeled “the worst of the worst” to open up, and why many of them speak with her because of something surprisingly simple: a deep human need to be heard and understood. She also addresses critics who say she shouldn’t give criminals a platform, revealing why listening to these voices is essential to exposing the systems behind global crime. We dive into her most harrowing experiences in the field — including the terrifying moment she and her team weren’t sure they would make it out alive, and the time they had to escape a country in the middle of a life-threatening military coup while filming. Mariana also unpacks the current climate in Mexico’s drug war, explaining why violence often escalates when major cartel kingpins are taken down, and the troubling implications of the fact that many of the weapons used by cartels originate in the United States. We get into one of the fastest-growing criminal industries in the world: scams. She breaks down everything you’ve ever wanted to know about romance scams and “pig butchering” operations, including: - Psychological tactics scammers use - Who scammers typically target and why - Massive infrastructure behind modern scam compounds - Why many scammers are actually victims of forced labor themselves - Why victims often stay silent due to shame and stigma Mariana explains why advancing technology, crypto, and AI are making financial scams easier than ever, and why anyone can fall victim — no matter how smart or cautious they are, including the shocking case of a bank CEO who was successfully defrauded. We also explore medical black markets, from organ trafficking to international surrogacy scams, and discuss some of her most intense interviews, from conversations with a suspected Russian sex spy to Anna Delvey, the infamous socialite scammer. Despite spending her career face-to-face with some of the darkest corners of humanity, Mariana reveals something surprising: she still believes deeply in people. In fact, she sometimes finds more hope, honesty, and equality in underground markets than in global governments or legal capitalism. This conversation will change how you think about crime, power, empathy, and the hidden systems shaping our world!

SHOCKING REVELATIONS: NASA Scientist Breaks Silence on Nonhuman Intelligence, UAPs, and the Evidence They Don’t Want You to See What if the truth about nonhuman intelligence is already here on Earth - hidden in our oceans, interfering with our technology, and operating beyond the laws of physics we thought were unbreakable? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Dr. Kevin Knuth (former NASA research scientist & Professor of Physics at the University at Albany) reveals jaw-dropping, real-world evidence that will completely change how you think about UAPs, aliens, and reality itself. Dr. Knuth breaks down: - Nonhuman Intelligence Already Living on Earth? Why advanced UAP capabilities suggest they may have underwater bases and a vested interest in our planet - Nuclear Missiles SHUT DOWN by Unknown Craft: Verified incidents that stunned military officials - UAPs That DEFY Physics: Instant acceleration, silent movement, & impossible flight characteristics explained - Burned Humans, Scorched Trees & Disabled Cars: Close encounters with real physical effects - Abduction accounts that will disturb you, Including cases where humans reportedly interacted with extraterrestrial beings…and even held alien infants - “Angel Hair” Phenomenon: Strange material falling from the sky witnessed by thousands and analyzed by scientists - UAP Crash Debris Analysis: What researchers are uncovering from mysterious recovered materials - 3I Atlas Mystery: New observations & anomalies that strongly suggest it’s NOT a comet - The Water World Hypothesis: Why oceans may be the perfect hiding place for advanced nonhuman intelligence (and the growing number of sightings of objects entering and exiting the water!) - Why many scientists are afraid to speak publicly about UAPs - The lack of “smoking gun” evidence, and why that might be misleading - Patterns across thousands of sightings that suggest something real is happening - Beyond UAPs: Consciousness & the Unknown -Telepathy, remote viewing, and why accuracy drops the harder you try - Savant abilities that continue to defy scientific explanation - Dr. Knuth’s own paranormal & precognitive experiences - How being near cattle mutilation cases first led Dr. Knuth to question everything—and begin his search for answers - Signs to look for if nonhuman intelligence exists within just one light-day of Earth This isn’t science fiction. These are real accounts, real data, and real questions that challenge everything we think we know about our place in the universe!

SHOCKING REVELATIONS: NASA Scientist Breaks Silence on Nonhuman Intelligence, UAPs, and the Evidence They Don’t Want You to See What if the truth about nonhuman intelligence is already here on Earth - hidden in our oceans, interfering with our technology, and operating beyond the laws of physics we thought were unbreakable? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Dr. Kevin Knuth (former NASA research scientist & Professor of Physics at the University at Albany) reveals jaw-dropping, real-world evidence that will completely change how you think about UAPs, aliens, and reality itself. Dr. Knuth breaks down: - Nonhuman Intelligence Already Living on Earth? Why advanced UAP capabilities suggest they may have underwater bases and a vested interest in our planet - Nuclear Missiles SHUT DOWN by Unknown Craft: Verified incidents that stunned military officials - UAPs That DEFY Physics: Instant acceleration, silent movement, & impossible flight characteristics explained - Burned Humans, Scorched Trees & Disabled Cars: Close encounters with real physical effects - Abduction accounts that will disturb you, Including cases where humans reportedly interacted with extraterrestrial beings…and even held alien infants - “Angel Hair” Phenomenon: Strange material falling from the sky witnessed by thousands and analyzed by scientists - UAP Crash Debris Analysis: What researchers are uncovering from mysterious recovered materials - 3I Atlas Mystery: New observations & anomalies that strongly suggest it’s NOT a comet - The Water World Hypothesis: Why oceans may be the perfect hiding place for advanced nonhuman intelligence (and the growing number of sightings of objects entering and exiting the water!) - Why many scientists are afraid to speak publicly about UAPs - The lack of “smoking gun” evidence, and why that might be misleading - Patterns across thousands of sightings that suggest something real is happening - Beyond UAPs: Consciousness & the Unknown -Telepathy, remote viewing, and why accuracy drops the harder you try - Savant abilities that continue to defy scientific explanation - Dr. Knuth’s own paranormal & precognitive experiences - How being near cattle mutilation cases first led Dr. Knuth to question everything—and begin his search for answers - Signs to look for if nonhuman intelligence exists within just one light-day of Earth This isn’t science fiction. These are real accounts, real data, and real questions that challenge everything we think we know about our place in the universe!

This week we are re-releasing a Substack Live from our Breaker community! Mayim and Jonathan are joined by Nicole Sachs, LCSW, a renowned psychotherapist, author, and speaker who has become an internationally recognized pioneer in the field of mind-body medicine. As the architect of the “JournalSpeak” method and host of The Cure for Chronic Pain podcast, Sachs has dedicated her career to treating patients suffering from chronic pain, autoimmune conditions, and fatigue by addressing the underlying emotional components of physical symptoms. Nicole explains that our brains often use physical pain as a “protective” distraction to keep us from feeling overwhelming emotions like rage, shame, or grief. Think of it like an emotional reservoir—when it gets too full, the pressure has to go somewhere, and often, it manifests as a backache, a migraine, or digestive issues. Nicole’s story is as relatable as it is miraculous. After a year of being so locked up in pain that she couldn’t even put her toddlers in their car seats, she had a spiritual and psychological breakthrough. By getting brutally honest with herself through a specific type of journaling, her chronic back pain was 80% gone by the next morning. Nicole breaks down her healing method into three simple parts that anyone can start today: * Knowledge: Understanding that your brain and body are constantly communicating. * The Work (Journal Speak): A specific, 20-minute daily practice of “unbridled rants” to get the hidden stress out of your system. * Self-Compassion: Learning to change the way you talk to yourself to help your nervous system feel safe. This approach has helped people struggling with fibromyalgia, IBS, migraines, anxiety, PTSD and addiction. As Nicole puts it, pain isn’t a “broken” part of you—it’s information. Once you learn how to listen to what your body is trying to say, the possibilities for your life are endless. Check out Nicole’s work below. Website: www.nicolesachs.com Book: MIND YOUR BODY Podcast: The Cure for Chronic Pain Coaching: www.nicolesachs.com/coaching Membership: www.nicolesachs.com/membership Instagram: @nicolesachslcsw Spotify From the Vault: Back Pain, Sciatica, Coccydynia, and Unnecessary Surgery with Jacqueline

In honor of Autism Month, we’re revisiting one of our popular episodes from 2024 with former Playboy Playmate, Holly Madison. She reveals SHOCKING truths about her life in the Playboy Mansion....from her relationship with Hugh Hefner (who was 54 years her senior) to LOVE BOMBING, the dark side of STOCKHOLM SYNDROME, and BREAKING FREE and discovering herself. Holly (bestselling author, podcaster, THE PLAYBOY MURDERS host & EP) opens up about how being diagnosed with autism recently affected her entire outlook on life and shares important signs that you might be in a manipulative relationship. She discusses everything you’ve ever wondered about Playboy life, including: - What enticed her about the Playboy mansion experience, how she came to live there, and how she became Hugh Hefner’s “Main girlfriend” - Why she thinks she was an easy target for Hefner - Tactics Hefner employed to keep women from leaving the mansion - How she numbed herself through substance use to get through day-to-day life - How interpersonal dynamics & intense sense of competition within the playboy mansion contributed to her body dysmorphia - HEALING & EMPOWERMENT: What was Hefner really like behind closed doors? And how did she FINALLY break free from his grip? - What led her to break her silence on the trauma she suffered during her time at the mansion We’re unpacking her fascinating autism diagnosis, from the benefits of finally being diagnosed and how it negatively influenced her decision-making process, to how it informed her parenting style. Holly breaks down: - The real cost of giving up yourself in a harmful relationship - Why people stay in harmful relationships, from fear of judgment to lack of financial stability - Finding spirituality in storytelling & the places she lets her intuition guide her - Her new mission as a free speech advocate! - What she does to maintain positive mental health, including her superstitious vision board process Mayim and Holly also bond over their love of true crime as Holly explains “The Playboy Curse”!